I was really hoping to be more productive this week. Instead I've slept in, had fun lunch dates every day, then I come home to nap. Every Christmas decoration is still up...and I'll turn the lights on to the house every night until Saturday probably. I just don't want to pick up the beautiful mess of Christmas I made. Where did the people go that helped me do all of this?!
Just to be clear...I can hold a dog and blog! Beau feels obliged to sit with me every moment I'm on the computer. Not just in my lap, but with his head on my shoulder, which requires me to lean back and pull the keyboard closer. Basically every task takes me twice as long because half of the time I'm typing one-handed. Thank goodness for the wireless keyboard & mouse. I kicked him out and shut the door, but he only stays out there crying! So for both our sakes...he stays with me.
Without going into a ton of detail, I just want to tell all of my friends with babies & expectant moms how lucky you are. I hope that my turn will be soon. I'm so happy for everyone. Seeing all of your beautiful babies is so exciting. Hearing all of your blogs about motherhood is fantastic. I'm not jealous, I just want the same. But when you don't seem get what you want, it always makes it a little harder. Here's to hoping that it'll eventually happen. I know there's a plan for us, but if you know me...I like to make my own plans and I want it my way. I've learned to have more patience and to let life lead me where it will. If life could cut us a break though & have a little less heartache in the future I'd appreciate it...and just in case there's a woman who didn't already know...HORMONES SUCK! They make you fat...they make you cry...they make you lose your mind sometimes...I would like some results please from all of the hormones!
And finally...I'm dreading going back to work. Why? I don't know. Although this has been my best year in a while, I just want it to be over. Change of path might be eminent. I mostly feel exhausted from my clientele. A change in atmosphere might just be what I need. But where to go & how to get there...hmmm. Trust this...If the Travel Channel called tomorrow and asked if I'd be Anthony Bourdain's B*^*^, I'd do it!
*Please take note of sarcasm where you will. I never intentionally try to be a ____.